The experience with this homeopath would shape the next two decades of my life. It started my own healing and created in me the desire to make a difference myself. The butterfly was finally emerging from it’s chrysalis!
I was told to go and read a book called “The Power of the Subconscious Mind” by Dr. Joseph Murphy, one of the very first “self help” books to be released, and I became fascinated by how our thoughts and emotions impact our lives, and more importantly, how much more in control we can be, if we choose.
Of course the above was only the beginning and I wish I could say that it became easier after that. It didn’t. But then you probably already know that there are no quick fixes and learning the important stuff can sometimes take much longer than we would like. Right?
As a result of my Lidocaine experience I became really curious about the power of my own subconscious mind and decided to put it to the test. I wanted to move back to the UK but had no idea how to go about it because:
1) I had made a naive investment several years before and had an unsecured debt of £50,000 (so I had to find a job at home which would allow me to continue paying off this debt)
2) I didn’t know how to go about finding a job earning a good salary when I wasn’t living in the country I wanted to work in? (This was 1989 and the Internet hadn’t been invented yet, so it wasn’t an option to look for a job online!)
I had no idea at all where to start. It seemed impossible. And so once again, I felt as if I had no choice but to try something new. I had absolutely nothing to lose.
In his book, long before the Law of Attraction industry came along, Dr. Murphy explained how to manifest what you wanted using the power of your mind. He wrote about seeing and feeling the outcome and how to think and behave once you had decided what you wanted … you basically had to place your order with the Universe and then act with the expectation that it would be delivered. And so that’s what I did.
I didn’t focus on the “how” but simply on the “what”. I knew that if I was successful, the first person I would turn to would be my mother, so I visualised myself standing in front of her, looking into her eyes and saying “I have a job and I’m coming home”. I knew that if I were in a position to be able to say those words to my mother, then I wouldn’t have to worry about where I was going to work, what I was going to do, how much I was going to earn or how I would move my things back to the UK … if I was saying those words to her, then EVERYTHING would have been taken care of. I then starting acting as if I had already been offered a job and was preparing to move home. I saved money every month for the deposit I would be putting on the house I was going to buy and I started decluttering in preparation for the move.
Nine months later, when I stood in front of her and said those words, I was completely overcome by emotion … not because I was moving home but because of the enormity of what I had achieved.
To this day I have no real explanation as to how it happened, but when I read the following well-known quote from W.H. Murray, I knew that I had experienced exactly this:
“Until one is committed there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative or creation, there is one elementary truth…that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would otherwise never have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favour all manner of incidents and meetings and material assistance which no man would have believed would have come his way.
Whatever you think you can do or believe you can do, begin it. Action has magic, grace, and power in it.”
― W.H. Murray The Scottish Himalayan Expedition